I’ve hit a roadblock. I’ve approached a place in my life where I don’t know what is going to happen next and no matter how much planning or strategizing I’ve been doing I can’t seem to find my way to the other side of this blockage that’s going on. I’ve had days where I have tried to pretend there in fact was no problem or issue. I’ve had days where I felt like throwing in the towel and I’ve had days where i’ve allowed myself to feel sorry for myself.
None of that in my opinion is wrong. There is nothing wrong with a quick pity party, you just can’t stay there. It’s important to allow yourself to sometimes feel that pain. You have to acknowledge when there is a problem so that you can fix it. Smiling and pretending everything is ok when it isn’t can be detrimental. No amount of bandaids is going to heal a gunshot wound. No, you have to realize what you are dealing with and seek the proper treatment. My life is no where and I do mean no where near perfect. Despite the nickname of “soft and gentle” some of my girlfriends have given me based on my “easy going” work from home life. In many ways yes, I do have a lot of freedom in my everyday life. I decide for the most part when I wake up every morning and what time I will do what. However, the security I would have with a 9-5 is simply not there.
I don’t know how I’m going to pay my bills every month nor do I know what tomorrow might bring in terms of writing opportunities. What I do know is that I have a roof over my head, transportation, tons of people in my life rooting for me who love and care for me and God given talent. Regardless of where I may go, or what might not be working in my life, God makes sure that i’m taken care of. Even when I feel like breaking down and crying I know that God has a plan for my life. I’m secure in the fact that what I was previously doing was not what God had for me and that no matter what roadblocks I face it’s all happening in my life for a reason.
If you are going through something similar you have to recognize the fact that you aren’t always going to have all of the answers and that’s ok! Everything that you are going through is preparing you for the next step in your life. You may be an entrepreneur, you may be working your butt off to reach a higher position at your job, you may be a stay at home mother who feels your efforts aren’t being appreciated. Whatever it is that you are going through, whatever roadblocks you may be facing, realize that it won’t be there forever. Maybe you will climb over it, maybe you will go around it, maybe you’ll shatter it and step over it. The point is that you will in fact get past it. Allow yourself to feel that disappointment acknowledge it and move on.
Trust me when I say that when you are living in your purpose it’s not always going to be easy. You know how many wealthy celebrities were homeless before finally reaching any pinnacle of fame and success? A ton! You are doing just fine. Regardless of what may be standing in your way, just keep doing what you love. Continue to live in your purpose using your God given talents to help and motivate others. No matter what difficulties you may be facing, just know that God never brings you somewhere to leave you there.
I promise, you will get past this.